Becky's blog

Since my last post many things have changed. I found out that John has some kind of illness that is potentially serious. He won't tell me what is going on. I am frustrated with that. He did not get Zane on his weekend, then he didn't get him on the substitute weekend. I am frustrated with his lack of caring about spending time with Zane. At the same time I hope he is okay.
My unpacking party was cancelled because he didn't get Zane. Two people came anyway and all the kitchen boxes got unpacked. I was so relieved. I don't really care about the rest of the boxes, I can do them a little at a time. But I do need to get the bathroom boxes unpacked.
I am now 35 weeks pregnant and dilated to almost 1 cm. That is just the beginning, but I feel like the baby will be here soon. I finally packed my hospital bag and have it in the car and ready to go. The crib is built and crib mattress in and the bed is made. Now I have to get the bassinet set up and the car seat in the car. Then the baby can arrive. I feel a little more prepared. Now is the hard part--waiting, even harder because I am doing it alone.
John's family has met Mary and are totally accepting of her. I guess that is the end of that. I will never get to do family things with them again. Very hard for me.
I have a sinus thing going and feel pretty horrible. I am going to try to go home and sleep some this afternoon. Hope that helps. I still plan to go to water aerobics, just hope I don't get too tired. I can always quit early.