Asking for help

Asking for help is not always easy for me, I tend to get the I can do it all attitude. It is worse if I ask for help and it doesn't come right away. I guess I wait so long to ask for help, that I am ready for it immediately. This week I broke down and asked all my friends and former co-workers for help unpacking all the boxes I have moved. I haven't had too many positive responses so far, so on Saturday I will probably be unpacking the boxes rather than sitting with my feet up as planned.
I gave John a whole bunch of stuff last night. He was gripy about it, until I said I could have thrown it all away and the least he could say was thank you. He finally, at the urging of his mom, said thanks and sounded appreciative. Then he started talking about all the stuff he doesn't have. I was a little upset. He has been gone for almost 6 months and he acts like he had one day to get it all. I did tell him to come and get all his stuff one day in November, but he knows he could have come back at anytime to pick up more stuff. I have been very generous about giving him things, at least I thought I was. John seemed really down last night but of course wouldn't share why. That is one thing I miss, being able to just talk to him. Even when he was griping about this or that, I felt like I could show him I cared by listening. I guess I was wrong. His mom was with him again last night, it is almost like he can't get Zane alone. Maybe it is just the bringing him back part and having to see me he doesn't want to do alone. It is a little frustrating to think that he can't spend any time with just Zane.
I am looking forward to the weekend so I can sleep in a little. I really have to get the boxes organized and some of them unpacked, but I can rest in between. I am feeling very exhausted and just flat worn down. I need to regain some energy before the baby's arrival. I hope that some of my friends follow through on their promises to help. I have learned that saying, "if I can do anything to help, let me know" really means, I don't know how to help you so I am just going to say some words. For a lot of people they don't really mean them. I will just have to wait until Saturday to see how much help I get.