Becky's blog

I haven't spoken to John since Sunday afternoon. He didn't even call about the doctor's appt. I am just going to have to face reality and know he doesn't care. I sometimes wish I could just have my memories wiped clean so I wouldn't have to think about what all has happened. I guess he has managed to do that somehow. Having a new woman helps I am sure. I just want him to admit that is what is going on. If he would just admit it, I could have closure for sure. But for now I guess I will just have to know in my heart. I just hurt so for the baby. She is getting the raw end of the deal here. He is such a jerk for what he is doing to her. He won't even think about what she is going to think and feel. I have tried to email him a couple of times, but no response so I am going to give up altogether.