Time is ever changing, ever moving. Life is ever changing, ever moving. It is funny how time affects life. A year ago I was mourning John's departure for New York. Mourning the loss of my husband and my friend. I didn't know how to go on. But somehow I made it through. I tried to run from God but couldn't hide. A ton of people prayed for me. I couldn't have done it without those prayers.

I prayed for God to restore my marriage, then I prayed for John's happiness, then I prayed for peace. I finally prayed God do what you want to do, You are in control anyway. Last September, after Cayla's surgery, I decided to date again. It has been slow going, and I haven't had much success. I prayed that God would provide a companion if that was His will. Then I decided it wasn't His will because I wasn't having success. I have dated two men. They both decided we should just be friends. So I have new friends. I also have two other men friends, but we started that way and will continue that way.

So what have time and life done this week? After a year (living together full time) John and Mary have split up. He and I can now be friends. We have actually had dinner, lunch and long talks. Time did march on and so did we. We still love each other and always will--but can't "love each other together" as John said. We can't be together. But we can be friendly. Life goes on. I do wonder though if God isn't answering prayers after a long time. Time will tell how it all is resolved. I can only guarantee it will be to His glory and His will.

A year after living with horrible depression--I am happy. I am living. I am doing well. Thank you God that life and time do go on. Thank you for being in control.